So out of shape so depressing
Don't let it get you down sis. We all get to a point where we feel we could improve, we feel we need to transform. I'm not down playing your feelings because yes sometimes it can be depressing...
One thing I learned at a very early age is that we all feel the exact same way; only not at the same time.
Out of let's say, 100 people who feel just like you do, you've already made a step beyond them because you're doing something about how you feel. You're getting into the flow of working out , being fit, and hopefully making positive lifestyle adjustments and eating healthier. That right there madam is something to feel good about. You got this. You've made the first step...don't miss the next one for looking behind you. Keep going. We got you covered. Keep on pushing.