I'm thinking of going back to cutting...but now I just think about suicide...my body and self image is a huge thing for me and especially my eating...I just give up and I don't see hope in anything...I need help...
Ups and downs eh?
Matt S seems to have a lot of things right. Specially the solution. Looking inside yourself is the way to go. At least it was for me. I don’t know your story, and I won’t tell you mine, but I know the feeling of not having anyone to go to because your convinced no one really care. Having pushed all your friends away and never wanting to get up in the morning because you know your just going to drag everyone else down. Even through that has nothing to do with reality.
Long story short. When my family realized the extend of my unfortunate situation I went to this therapist. And here is what I got out of it. I came to realize that I where so focused on the outside world and the things I couldn’t change that I were unable or unwilling to see all the opportunities I had to have a positive impact on the world around me. Because I was so convinced that I would drag everyone down. It became reality. But even though I had realized this, changing it seemed like an impossible task. And at this point I had another advice. A great life lesson I can never forget. It is not about what everyone else thinks or do or want. It’s all about you and what you want.. So what do you want what is your definition of success?? Do you want money? Do you want to be strong and beautiful? Do you want to be confident, smart or do you just want to make a difference in other peoples life? All of these things might seem like impossible and far fixed dreams, and maybe they are, but what do I know? I’m only 20 years old and maybe these things are going to happen to me in the future… If I work for it so to say. But to me it doesn’t really matter if those things happens or not. As long I try I can make every day a success. And to do so I make sure that every sing day I do just one thing to accommodate one of my goals. Just one thing and my day have been a success. If I can just learn one new thing, just do one good thing for another person, if I can just do 10 pushups my day was a success. It doesn’t matter what happens tomorrow. Everything that matters is what happens today right now. A success doesn’t have to be large, it just have to be there, because every little success takes you one step closer to where you want to be. And soon these small victories are going to motivate you to get even more successes and soon you will do this you never through you could do. Failure doesn’t exist before you give up and say you failed. Remember that.
So I ask you what do you want? What do you want more then anything else? No matter how far fixed it is. Say it out loud and take just one small step to make it happen. Even if you cant se how it’s going to bring your to your goal. Just do something right now and you will realize life is much more rewarding then you think.
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I feel your pain, I feel what you going through but what you said is so wrong in so many ways. Think about it, theres a lot of good people dying right now getting shot, killed, dying on birth, & etc that deserve to live. I'm not here to tell you what to do & I can't stop you, you make your own decisions. I just received a call from the Dominican Republic that one of my old friend got shot & killed, he was a hard working kid who help everyone & your thinking of suicidal c'mon you should know better than the. The only thing I could do is give you an advise & is your choice to either take it or not. Theres so many ppl in this world who don't have shoes, food or even a place to sleep but guess what a lot of them are happy & a lot of them dont give up. Think twice before you do anything & your action may affect the ppl around you. I won't lie I have thought of suicide as well but now I look back & say wow what I said was really stupid. I'm only 17 right now & I I'm very insecure till this day. I'm not obese or skinny but I I'm chubby. My family they love going to the pool, beach, waterpark & Lake & everytime they invite me I make an excuse. Either tmm, next week, next month or even next year I will start working hard on the body I want. Don't let no body tell you that you can't do anything, don't let no one put you down. It don't matter if your fat or to skinny ppl don't have the rights to judge you. Every thing you do takes time a miracle is not going happen. Theres a lot of celebrities who are at the top right now cause they worked hard to get there. In this life you won't get everything you want you need to work hard for it. There plenty of obese ppl who gotten to the weight they always wish to be on & why did it happen cause they never gave up. When ppl say shit Like this (excuse my language) it gets me sad & angry cause you shouldn't put your self down like this:( Itz crazy right, why should I care if I don't even know you right? I care because I know every one should deserve something better I care because I hate when ppl think of stuff like this don't self harm your self. I want you to look at your self in the mirror & tell your self YOU CAN DO IT! giving up shouldn't be an option. You just gotta belive on your self :D
Cutting is a great way to improve self image. Remember to aim for (10-12*(current body weight in pounds)) and to aim for high protein to counter the muscle loss of cutting.