Everyday I workout I feel the changes taking place inside me.
New energy. New strength. More focus. Increased confidence.
I may get impatient at times but never doubt the results will eventually show on the outside if I keep pushing myself and don't give up.
Everyday I get one step closer to my goal and slowly build a new, healthier and fitter way of life.
Life is good.
You know when you run the water for a much needed bubble bath and the phone rings and you forget to adjust the water temperature?
When you first try to get in and you stick one foot in thinking..."that's a tad warm" and then the other commiting yourself?
You know when you get in fully and then you understand that you've just stepped into a bubble bath full of hot hot hot hot hot...
When it's sooooo hot that you are paralyzed and all you can do is imagine your freezer and sticking your head in?
My bubble bath held me hostage.
I think I've been boiled alive and have narrowly escaped death.
I've been purified...
I'm starting to get people pushing food at me....
Apparently decreasing instead of increasing my weight means I'm starving myself. Me? Starve myself?
I'm surrounded by feeders!
Ok. Been meaning to write this for a while. So here goes.
I hear many say there's no time. I'm busy doing this and that. No space and countless of other excuses.
There's always time.
I'm currently on holiday in beautiful Italy. I've managed to find time to do some workouts every day.
I have limited space, time and no equipment but that's no excuse.
If anything, being here and knowing my diet will not be as healthy as usual (criminal not to eat here) pushes me to do some workouts where and when I can.
It may be really short ones. It may be calf raises while waiting for a bus. A plank here and there. It all counts. It's all better than nothing.
It makes me feel like I'm still keeping my goal in mind. It reminds me that this break is just that...a temporary break to a normal permanent routine.
When I'm back I'll be sweating and pushing to not only get back to where I was.. but to also give me room to enjoy the yummy food here.
I haven't written my thoughts here in ages but there's something I've been meaning to share.
I had no idea when I started that I was embarking on a change in attitude and lifestyle. I had no idea that I would be competing daily against myself. Old habits, easier options...excuses excuses excuses.
What I noticed the longer I stuck to this, was the increased confidence，"If I can do this what else can I do?". Instead of saying "it's too hard" like I would in the past I am now just pushing through. It may take longer，but if someone else can do it I can too. Or at least I'll give it my all.
Now we get to my most recent phenomenon. Now that I've started to feel positive and have more energy. Now that I can feel the strength growing in me. Now that I know I can do it, I'm getting the negative comments.
Today was from colleagues at work. I also get family and friends occasionally. Some make passing comments. Others are passive aggressive. Some even make jokes out of what they call 'my hobby'. Majority of these people have one thing in common.
They have tried and given up. Some have been on countless fad diets. Some have exercised until they could do no more. Others make excuses of time. All just do not want to be reminded of what they would 'like to but won't do'.
So they call it "my obsession", say I'm getting "too skinny". Try and tempt me with food and make jokes when I choose to go home and workout rather than go out drinking.
One thing is different. I am. I know better. I know how I feel. Words bounce off me or get washed away by the sweat. Let them talk. I'm doing this for me. It feels good. It feels right. That's what counts.
All the rest? It's nothing but hot air.