I just lost my dad after reaching my first goal of 155. I lost 7 pounds my first month on this app. I had changed my lifestyle and started to really feel good. The responsibility of the funeral and having to clean his apartment out and console my family took a toll. I had to drive 45 minutes every day to handle preparations. My emotions were going crazy. I don't know how to be vulnerable unless I am sick. I had a wall up. I would be exercising and start crying in the middle of my workout. It made it tough to finish. I had no energy some days. Trying to pick myself back up and find my motivation is hard. But I keep telling myself my dad would be proud of me reaching my dreams and being healthy. He always thought I was the most beautiful girl and wanted me to be happy and healthy. That is my focus. He would never want to see me fail. Though I wish I still had him here, I know that everything I do now is to make him proud. If any of you are going through this, I hope I helped. I am only 23 and he was only 54. It hurts but grief isn't supposed to keep you down. It is supposed to change you and make you a stronger person. I want to be strong. I am done being that shy little girl.