Jess; you, my dear lady, are a motivational power house! I am honored to call you Sister.
Natalie, you are not alone. I've been on the other end of the spectrum with struggling to gain and generally unhappy with how I viewed myself. I was 135lbs and I'm damn near 6' tall.
My word to you ma'am ; after reading you and Jess's heart to heart, your drive and determination overall is very apparent and admired.
We are all here for you whenever you need that extra push.
You don't need to hear it from me that you have every tool you need to reach the plane in which you seek. Stay focused two steps past your goals and go for it head first! I said head first because this is all mental. Keep your head in it and you've got this!
Ok I'm done. Later ladies.